Saturday, December 8, 2007

Stages of Grieving

I was looking at some of the babiesonline websites people post on WebMD and thought to look at the one I set up during my first pregnancy. To my surprise there was a note saying that it would expire tomorrow if it was not updated soon. I updated it so I could see it. The whole experience seems to be something apart from myself now. I remember it all keenly, but the incapacitating grief is gone. I guess that the peace has come to me. That is so important, because I would be driving myself crazy with worry by now if I still had all those feelings. Sure I get my illogical fears often enough, but I think that's normal. I suppose I just wish I felt more like I was pregnant. I don't want to say that too loud because it will cue the morning sickness to come.

Anyway, as I was looking through my old website I thought about the stages of grieving. I used to teach that to my 9th graders. There is a video below that I would show to my students if I were still teaching. It shows the stages of grieving through a giraffe's eyes. I'm amazed at how accurate those stages are. I can pinpoint when they happened to me after losing the baby. I'm a lot less worried about this pregnancy than I thought I would be. It's a gift from a loving Father. Enjoy the video.

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